In a week where there were more strikes to try and ensure the pension rights of many Civil Servants, it might seem petty and churlish to highlight the plight of Cardiff City FC.   However, the leaked proposals to change the club's emblem from bluebird to red dragon and the shirts from blue to red is something which goes beyond the outrage of many fans.
   My initial reaction was one of complete shock and horror. The association of Cardiff City with blue shirts has been integral to our identity for over a century. All my home memories and those of my son are blue ones and the bluebird itself  has risen higher and higher in our sense of belonging to the club.
   Would Swansea accept an owner who asked them to sport a leek on their badges and play in blue ? Liverpool fans would no doubt stage a rebellion under similar circumstances.
   In the past, our many fanzines have relished the nickname. Think of 'Watch the Red Dragon Fly!' and it smacks of Harry Potter! The confusion with the Welsh national team is obvious.
   The fact that it was presented as a fait accompli ( with the League having been informed of the change) makes it all the more galling.
   Hearing of the compliance of some fans, I seriously imagined whether I would be able to stand among their red throng next season, with my defiant blue scarf, militantly shouting 'Bluebirds!' as these strange red-shirted players appeared out of the tunnel.
   I understand it's hard for those who aren't fans to appreciate the strength of feeling I have ( shared by many others, it must be said). A football club is more than watching and supporting a team: it is the cameraderie developed over the years and the tradition of chants and songs; chants like 'I'll be there' deriving from the 1926 General Strike.
'I never felt more like singin' the Reds / When Cardiff win and Swansea lose' hasn't quite got the same ring to it, has it?
   The knowledge that fans' representatives like Davies and Jefferies were adamantly in favour of change made it all the more difficult to take.
   They were led to believe that rejecting it would call into question the £100 million pledged by Malaysian owner Vincent Tan.
   The nature of this investment hasn't been fully scrutinised. £40 million of it is actually the loans owed to Tan himself, plus interest, together with  the loan still owed to Langston. There were plans for a 36,000 seater stadium which is not needed in the Championship and  equally unnecessary training facilities.
   Cash for players was promised to our manager from the sale of red shirts, yet why would these be bought in Asia?
   Football followers there are fascinated by the Premiership and show scant interest in the Championship. For all the talk of the  lucky colour red and the dragon being a logo showing West/East fusion, a vast number of fans here in Wales would have boycotted the red shirts.
   I was amazed at the sudden U-turn and ashamed at the fawning responses of those representatives, who urged fans to make it up to the Malaysian owners by turning up in red at board meetings and generally rolling over like obedient Welsh corgis.
   The 'Western Mail' also favoured the red option, with their football editor advocating it in response to their own on-line poll showing that a majority backed it.
   I believe that poll was flawed. There were comments on-line by fans who had clicked for blue but had registered red and my experience was the same.
   All this has exposed the callous disregard to Cardiff City's history and tradition by owner Tan and the willingness of certain fans to be taken in and controlled by the situation.
   The whole notion of Tan as some smiling benefactor has been called into question by this.
   There is a conspiracy theory which sees this 'divide and rule' strategy as a means of pulling out of the club.
   There is also the precariousness of Tan's own position and that of his huge business empire.
   He is widely seen as a stooge of the ruling elite and half his gambling business is actually owned (though kept in in his name) by the ruling party Umno, despite the illegality of gambling in that Muslim country!
   With elections due in Malaysia next year or before, there is a strong likelihood that (for the first time since independence) there will be a change of government and with this a real threat to his all-encompassing business influences.
   The opposition (and therefore, a large proportion of the population) do not trust Vincent Tan at all. He has a record of many murky affairs and was subject to a Leveson-type Enquiry, which recommended that action be taken against him for misconduct.
   This week has brought to the fore something which we, the foootball fans, would rather forget : the whole nature of club ownership.
   I understand fully that some fans couldn't care less who owns their club as long as there's plenty of money. We could be taken over by Mugabe or Asad and as long as Malky has cash for players. But for me, there are serious moral and political implications.
   I strongly believe we should move towards the German model, where fans own at least 50% of the club, thus ensuring a strong voice and genuine participation in decision-making.
   I am heartened by the success of my hometown Martyrs team, who are owned and run by a Football Trust, proving that an alternative can work.




                 CARDIFF CITY'S FUTURE HISTORY

When Cardiff City FC were taken over
by multizillionaire fridge magnate
Boris Bogov from the little-known eastern European
country of Rippovia,
fans were dubious at first,
till Bogov promised limitless transfer funds,
a 40,000 seater stadium and brandnew
state of the art double-decker team bus.

Bogov proposed to rename the stadium
the ColdCare stadium after his company
and the four stands after his sons
Ivan, Maxim, Sergei and Lilian.
He wanted to change the bluebird emblem
of over a century to goulash
the favoured dish of many back home
and, indeed, other countries.
He  wanted to change the colour
of shirts to white with purple circles,
like the national flag of Rippovia.

There was outrage among some fans,
though their trusted representatives
knew the club was in dire straits
and Boris Bogov was their saviour.

Some fans protested wearing blue shirts
dressed up as bluebirds, singing blue songs,
while others tried to please Boris
by dressing as fridges outside board meetings
and only getting drunk on vodka.

The whole takeover collapsed when Boris
was arrested in his own country
and dubbed 'The Most Corrupt Man in Europe'
after bribing judges and politicians,
using widespread child labour
and rigging the National Lottery
(he was a friend of Prince Andrew).

Defenders of the Bluebird remarked 'I told you so!'
while fans' representatives announced with optimism
that the King of Bahrain was interested in Cardiff City.
The rest, as they don't say, is future history.
 
 
   While Wales is always looking to countries such as those in Scandinavia for models in education, in one aspect we could learn from England.
   That is the matter of school meals and their nutritional value ; also, the standard of them.
   We need to look to England, but not replicate what they've done, because France as well should provide inspiration.
   The source of the problem dates back to the dark days of Thatcher and sweeping ideology of privatisation (which the Con Dems are still intent on in England today).
   When school meals provision was privatised in the 1980s to create competition, all it did was ensure that the cheapest provider won out and pupils suffered. Multi-nationals provided pre-prepared food, with a total lack of fresh, local ingredients.
   Labour's answer was the usual reactive politics, responding to the influence of tv celebrity chef Jamie Oliver, he in effect became the 'school meal tsar' under Blair.
   Though the underlying problems of ownership and control weren't addressed, what we can learn is the need to deal with it on a national basis.
   In England, the food available for school meals has radically changed, though it is now under threat as Gove attempts to free the flagship Academies from what he sees as 'restrictions'. Compulsory Home Economics, healthy food choices and the banning of vending machines could all disappear.
   Sadly, in Cymru we had no such national policy which pushed through dramatic alterations in eating habits ; the meals in our schools remain poor by comparison. Individual councils have tried to redress the balance, but we have failed to counter the 'junk food' epidemic and the serious obesity levels which follow.
   In a recent article in the 'Guardian' the menu at English schools was far more varied and nutritional and also catered for vegetarians in a way we do not in Wales. Science has proved conclusively that vegetarianism is beneficial in terms of health, both short and long term, especially in relation to cancer and heart disease.
   My daughter attends a Comp in RCT and recently asked what the vegetarian alternative was. She was told that there was none and they only wrote it on the menu and didn't actually cook it!
   At her school, burgers and pizzas are available every day of the week and healthier options soon run out. At my wife's Primary the food is served in paltry portions and the standard very poor. Some Primaries still don't have cooking facilities on site, so the food is merely brought in and re-heated.
   Compare this to France, where children from the age of three are given five courses, with three of these often being salad, fruit and cheese. From this age they are encouraged to try everything and acquire a taste for the likes of mussels and artichokes!
   We lag behind both England and France and the behaviour and ability to study of our children are impaired as a consequence. Any teacher will tell you about the dreaded afternoon 'hyper', a factor which could be minimised ,or even eradicated , with real investment in improving school meals.
   Local suppliers must be sourced at every opportunity ( a vital point in Plaid Cymru's local government manifesto) and there must be an ethical thrust to it, with free range or organic products used wherever possible.
   The provision of meals must be returned to our elected representatives at Council and Senedd levels, to ensure that kitchen staff are decently paid, trained thoroughly and investment made into a long term commitment.
   As well as this, I'd advocate the involvement of pupils and teachers in their own meals.
   In Comprehensives, Home Economics Departments should return to more practical work and less design and food provided, not brought in by the pupils. They should be linked to the kitchens themselves, with pupils given chances to devise menus and ,indeed, play a part in preparation of food for consumption by fellow pupils.
   In Primary schools, each form could be assigned a week where they contribute one thing to the school meals, even if it were as basic as a fresh fruit salad.
   Every school should have a plot of land where vegetables and herbs are grown to be used regularly in the school kitchen.
   Imagine the excitement of children following their own produce from seed to picking and on to preparation and eating. Imagine the pride they would take!
   With this sense of participation I believe more pupils would opt for school meals rather than packed lunches (which invariably include crisps and chocolate bars), a trip down the shops or the local chip van.
   Food needs to be exciting and reflect the global recipes available, but also seasonal.
   When I was in Grammar School there was no choice and  though the meals were probably more balanced than today's, a great deal was inedible. The meat, for example, wouldn't have been out of place in a cobbler's window!

   This poem relates to an earlier experience and my first, uncomfortable rebellion!



                                      A BOWL OF FROGSPAWN


Four going on five,
shorts and a bush of curly hair.
Even then, singing and footie
were my desires.


At the Infants, told to eat
whatever was before me.
Refused the bubbly tapioca,
like spawn scooped into jamjars.


Had to stand on my own
at the front,
had to explain
why I wouldn't eat it.


No words to describe
the way I looked
for black dots swimming
in its sticky gloop ;


the way I imagined frogs
hatching in my tummy,
jumping up my throat
and filling my mouth!


I stood speechless,
all eyes upon me
staring poppy-out like toads.
I thought I'd wee ;


I thought the yellow liquid
would make a pool below me
and all those froggy children
would hop towards me, burping loud.

 
 
   To call my last week eventful would be like saying that the economy is looking frail; in other words, a total understatement.
   It began a week last Thursday with the visit of the new Plaid Cymru leader to Merthyr.
   Leanne Wood may be a Valleys' woman through and through, but her election proved she appeals to a much wider constituency.
   Like myself, another old-timer of the political world in Merthyr had rejoined the Blaid to support her.It was interesting watching him as he observed her ease of engagement with people on the street. I knew what he was thinking - 'I've done the right thing!'
   Hopefully, she will fulfil our expectations and adhere to her long-held principles of socialist republicanism. Not merely 'adhere' in fact, but develop them and, in time, apply them from government in the Senedd.
   She has stated this week that she will work with Labour wherever their policies are 'progressive'. I think Plaid Cymru need to set out clearly what those policies should be, but, above all, argue for radical alternatives to Labour's lack of imagination and unwillingness to actually implement genuine socialism (republicanism remains anathema to most of them, of course).
   The next day I spotted numerous red balloons in town. I wish they'd choose a more apt colour : a pale and putrid pink perhaps?
   Were these the heads of Labour apparatchiks, blown up and fit for bursting?
   Among those who gathered to welcome Milidee to Merthyr - in an engineered situation at a local training centre, designed to keep him away from the plebs - was a former friend and colleague.
   He is standing for Labour in Cardiff in the forthcoming local elections and has been tipped a a future leader there. I taught with him at Radyr, where he showed scant interest in politics, except expressing a preference for Gordon Brown on one occasion.
   He was suspended from teaching for cheating at GCSE coursework and the General Teaching Council upheld the school's decision. However, at his hearing he lied continuously about his then Head of Dept., a good friend of mine and also a former friend of his! This was all reported in the 'Echo' and the Head of Dept. was given no right of reply.
   I could not bring myself to speak to him, knowing how much he'd hurt my friend. If this is an example of the kind of candidates standing for Labour, then it bodes very badly for the future. He will probably get elected and Labour could take control of Cardiff. A frightening proposition!
   One week after a wind of the future blew through the litter-strewn streets of Merthyr, we were flung back into a Medieval maelstrom with the visit of the Queen of this Disunited Kingdom, Mrs Windsor.
   On Tuesday 'Western Mail' reporter Peter Law said they'd be a small protest in Llandaf by British-based organisation Republic, but made no mention of the protest I'd helped organise in Merthyr.
   I e-mailed him and he assured me it would be remedied the following day, yet nothing appeared. This was typical of both his paper and the 'Echo' all week, with their constant monarchist propaganda. You wonder whether their reporters were embedded with the police in Merthyr and told what to write!
   The protest went well and parts can be viewed on You-Tube. Unfortunately, I missed the speeches as I was conducting a poetry workshop in Cardiff. I am assured by those present that the speakers, Bethan Williams of Cymdeithas yr Iaith, Bethan Jenkins AM and poet and law lecturer Tim Richards all made a great impact.  Paul Flynn of Labour had been asked to speak, but declined saying he was doing his bit in the Common's Chamber!
   While the Llandaf protest was British-orientated, ours was a gathering of Welsh republicans (plus a couple of anarchists), the majority being socialists and calling for a 'Gweriniaeth Gymraeg'.
   It is so ironic that Mrs Windsor chose to visit one of the poorest towns in the whole of Europe during a week when her royal barge had been completed at a cost of £50 million pounds. When we hear of 10 wards closed at the local hospital, it seems an obscenity to spend such money on a family whose position owes so much to past wars and conquests.
  How we need a band like The Clash now to fire up the young once again with righteous indignation!
   I joined the demo outside Cyfarthfa Castle grounds, that memorial to the wealth, power and privilege of  ironmasters the Crawshays.
   Soon we moved inside the park, not far from where Mrs Windsor would land in her own helicopter.
   Noting our presence, a large van with police reinforcements came. We were told by the cops to get behind the barricades ( sorry......barriers....getting carried away!.......I almost was later!).
   We agreed to do so on assurances from the Commander that everyone else would have to as well.
   One female protester had already been badly manhandled by police, so we were wary.
   Many of us were from Merthyr, others from all over Cymru and there was a section of the Red Poets Action Faction.
   Unlike Ebbw Vale the next day, there was a scarcity of flag-waving school pupils and the most abuse flying around came from a female scout leader.
   I spoke to a few policemen who actually expressed sympathy for our cause!
   One bloke yelled at me to 'Go home!' He was obviously prejudiced against people from Heolgerrig, up the road from there.
   Of course, the police had lied to us, and it soon became evident that we were the only ones to be kept behind barriers. Now they claimed it was 'for the children's protection'!
   When Mrs W. and Phil the Greek arrived, they were taken by her private limousine the couple of hundred yards from car-park to castle.
   With shouts of 'Democracy!' and 'Cymru Rydd!', my friend and comrade Jamie Bevan rushed up the hill and dodged through police lines towards the car.
  I followed waving Y Ddraig Goch and ,still inside those barriers, was hurtled backwards with a copper's push. I instinctively swore and another one shoved me more aggressively.
   After the demo, the remains of the protesters were surrounded by police with tazers and accompanied by police on horses down Brecon Road. I'd left by then, but I was told they were kettled outside the Grawen pub and my friend the Bartzman wasn't even allowed in to get a pint!
   Jamie was later kept in the police-station overnight and charged with a Breach of the Peace. When he was detained there, the poilice insisted he had asked for 'non-disclosure', in other words non-communication with anyone. This was another blatant lie on their behalf!
   On release, he explained to us that he'd insisted on speaking Welsh there and the Sergeant had responded by threatening to have him 'for wasting police time'. Naturally, Jamie didn't relent.
   Another protester was arrested in a bizarre incident. He was released after 9 hours ,the police again lying about 'non-disclosure',without charge  and his fellow anarchist from Swansea explained that police believed the cigarette he was smoking was drugs.They later altered the charge to a Breach of the Peace, which was eventually dropped. Maybe they just wanted to identify the person under the black balaclava.
   Jamie Bevan's case didn't come before Merthyr Magistrates  until after 3.30 pm on the Friday. The reason given was that he was waiting for an interpreter. Coincidentally, this was about the same time the Windsors left Aberfan.
   During the day his charge was changed to a Public Order Offence, as they knew the other one wouldn't stick.
   In court we were dumbfounded to hear it was based on some incident in Brecon Road. No-one, including Jamie himself, had any recollection of this at all. It appears that the police have witnesses.
   When Jamie is due to appear before the court again on May 24th, he will use video evidence.
   Jamie is a remarkable man : a modern Lewsyn yr Heliwr, to use an analogy from the Merthyr Rising of 1831. He 's brave and idealistic and commited to a Welsh Socialist Republic.
   I hope all  fellow republicans turn up at that court session to support him.
        Cefnogwch Jamie Bevan!




                      THE FRACKIN' CROWN ESTATE


They own the rivers,
they own the swans
commit treason if you eat

the frackin' Crown!
the frackin' Crown Estate!

they own the deer they shoot,
they own the grouse and pheasant
that they kill and mutilate

the frackin' Crown!
the frackin' Crown Estate!

they own the gold they wear
from their mountains over there
behind those padlocked gates

the frackin' Crown!
the frackin' Crown Estate!

they own the ocean beds
the revenue from turbines
you won't find the media debate

the frackin' Crown!
the frackin' Crown Estate!

hotels and whole estates
and minerals beneath your feet;
think they own your fate

the frackin' Crown!
the frackin' Crown Estate!

the shale, the gas, pollution,
selling our futures on the cheap;
think they own me and you, mate!

the frackin' Crown!
the frackin Crown Estate!
  
    
 
 
   The latest Council policy in Merthyr Tudful is to divide the town into Quarters. What they haven't planned, however, is a Rebel Quarter.
  This is due to be inaugurated next Thursday, April 26th, with a gathering of republican protesters demanding a real democracy for Cymru, as we are prepare for visiting foreign monarch Mrs E. Windsor.
   Gwrthdystiad Gweriniaethol , Merthyr Rising 2012, will begin at 11.30 am outside the plaque to working-class martyr Dic Penderyn, at the town library. Speakers will include Plaid Cymru A.M. Bethan Jenkins, Bethan Williams of Cymdeithas yr Iaith and Tim Richards (former stalwart of both the Welsh Socialist Republicans and Cymru Goch).
   I have no issue with the royals as individuals. For all I know, Mrs Windsor could be a lovely old lady who does not invite bloody dictators like King Hamad of Bahrain to her Diamond Jubilee celebrations, her husband not a xenophobe, Carlo and William certainly not animal-shooting aristocrats, Harry never a racist who once called a friend a 'Paki' and Andrew definitely not a trade ambassador with perverts and dubious dictators as friends and allies.
   Of course, the images  of the monarchy has been cleverly reconstructed following all these perceptions, as a recent article in the Guardian's G2 illustrated clearly. I look forward to Welsh language poet and novelist Grahame Davies reinventing Carlo in his forthcoming role as press officer for him.
   Can we expect even Charles to emerge from this change as a hip green warrior embracing the wind-farms he once described with such horror? Certainly, he'll need to avoid claims of hypocrisy, as the 'royal family' will receive up to £40 million from the sale of the ocean beds owned by the Crown Estate to windfarm companies.
   I don't expect the gwerin to rise up and overthrow Mrs Windsor when she comes to Cyfarthfa Castle and Aberfan this week. I do expect to see lots of schoolchildren provided with Union flags to wave, in a staged show of support much like the demonstrations of grief for N.Korean dictator Kim Jong II when he died.
   In face, whenever the opulent palaces of some autocrat like Gadaffi or Sadam Hussein are shown with such disgust on the media, I am merely reminded of the luxury our monarchy live in, with their numerous palatial residences and servants to do their bidding ( including lickspittle poets and writers). Our taxes, through the £7.9 million Civil List, paying for them.         The arguments against the monarchy are manifold , but one of the most impoirtant is they act as a unifying force for a Britain which cannot deliver meaningful prosperity and equality to the Welsh people and , indeed, to working-class people throughout these islands.
   The more people identify with them, the less they identify with their class and culture. It is the Orange Order theory writ large. In other words, divide and rule in order to subjugate.
   I am heartened to learn from a friend who has been to N. Irelnad more recently than me that even in a Loyalist town like Bushmills the red-white-and-blue of the pavingstones is fading fast and there are actually street names in Gaelic! Perhaps with a degree of independence and power-sharing, even those Loyalists who had fanatical allegiance to the monarchy have begun to change.
   In Cymru, we have been fixated too long on the British nation-state, born out of capitalism and now dying with it.
   The benefits which come from the monarchy are equal to those which come from being part of Britain. Both make us one of the poorest areas in the whole of Europe!
   Those who are better off might say - 'What have we to gain from being a republic?'
    I would reply - 'What have we got to lose?'
    Our jobs? Our homes? Our futures?
    These are already being threatened or lost.
    Yet, with the election of Leanne Wood as leader of Plaid Cymru, I believe there's a new spirit afoot.
   We can envisage a very different Cymru: one where we are equal citizens and not subjects who are expected to look up to a family whose position is due entirely to an accident of birth.
   We can envisage a Cymru with an elected President who would represent us, yet wield no power; much like Ireland, but not necessarily coming from the professional classes. It could be anyone who has contributed greatly to the people of Wales.
   Even a writer.........you never know!
   To those who say we live in a democracy, I would answer - 'No, we do not!'
   How can we, when a family lives in such wealth and with such status ? The people of Wales, not the Crown Estate, should own all land underground and the ocean bed.
   If there are moves, however tentative, to abolish the House of Lords because of an archaic system of hereditary and nepotistic privilege, then why not the monarchy? Surely, the same principles apply.
   And so........back to Merthyr this week, where a band of dedicated Welsh republicans will gather to say we do not welcome Mrs Windsor to this town where, in the Rising of 1831, 20 people were killed by the forces of the Crown and Dic Penderyn was taken to Cardiff and hanged, with many others transported to Australia.



                       THE 5 QUARTERS OF MERTHYR


First the Cafe Quarter appeared on signs
and visitor maps around town
until, with the opening of an Oriental
Eat-As-Much-As-You-Can-Till-The-Ambulance-Comes,
it finally became real.

Controversially, the Learning Quarter,
once called Merthyr College
taken over by the University of Glamrock
with new buildings sprouting like dandelions
(cynics would say - 'Teach 'em to fill in forms!').

What after? The Culture Quarter?
With Theatr Soar and the Canolfan,
the Old Town Hall resurrected at last;
street theatre every weekend
outside takeaways, recreating Old China.

There must be the Retail Quarter
out of town by necessity,
away from empty, charity, pound, mobile,
card shops and pawnbrokers;
go window-shopping for roller-blinds!

And the fifth one, the Rebel Quarter,
across from the Dic, by the plaque
to the martyr, making us more
than a sum of our parts, a place
you can't count on to conform.


  
 
 
   It's been a strange week. I woke up at precisely 4.48 am on the first morning of our short break in Llandudno.   My wife thought I was rummaging around for indigestion tablets.
   'Just writing!' I assured her.
   I wrote the first draft of a poem about Tai Chi. I 've been thinking of giving it a try, but fear it might herald the onset of Bopadom.
   Our visit to y gogledd followed by son's stay with us, which he managed to combine with work and a story about unemployment in his home town of Merthyr for Channel 4 News.
   He'd searched for an angle and , without prompting from me, decided on pursuing a link between poetry and unemployment, which would focus on the poet Jazz from Penywaun. Jazz is a Red Poet of long standing, though he hasn't appeared in the magazine for a number of years.
   After saying it would be 'impossible' I did manage to organise a last minute Poems 'n' Pints night at our regular venue The Imp in a matter of days and thankfully enough turned up to fill the small room.
   Jazz did his signature poem 'Giro City', a poem which he's used successfully in the past to clear Penrhys of rodent problems, break up riots in Brynmawr and send punters in the Millennium Centre scurrying towards the fire exits in panic!
  My son's item appeared on Wednesday's News and , though characteristically bleak, was also sensitive and certainly Jazz did us all proud when he spoke very eloquently.
   I made a cameo appearance waving my arms about. I was glad I couldn't play 'How Do You Solve A Problem like Maria?' on the mouth-harp, as requested by the producer.
   And so, off up north.........my wife likes to drive through Wales on the A470 and, on a bright day, it was stunningly picturesque weaving our way past Cader Idris, through the slate country of Blaenau Ffestiniog and on to Y Eryri's lakes and mountains.
   Llandudno has a reputation as Costa Geriatrica, yet there were more young families there than pensioners and it is an interesting place to visit.
   Last time we were there was for the Urdd Eisteddfod. It was a wet and windy Whitsun and we attempted to walk towards the prom, but were blown back townwards.
   Then it seemed dull and dreary, but this time we embraced our closeness to Y Gogarth (the Great Orme) and did the Victorian thing of a trip up and back on the  trundling tram.
   My young daughter's desire for a more risky form of transport  was only satisfied after we ventured up and down again straight after on the cable car, this time spotting the famous wild goats which roam the area. Apparently brought here by the Windsors, I did suggest picketing them with republican slogans, but nobody was up for it.  
   A visit to Oriel Mostyn proved to be the disappointing aspect of our trip.
   I should've written 'pretentious claptrap' on the Visitors' Book, but refrained from doing so.
   They showed no interest in my joint exhibition with Merthyr artist Gus Payne, 'Dim Gobaith Caneri', and I could see why. Conceptual art and overblown abstract justifications were order of the day........blobs and dots and whole room of photos of cows.
   If MOMA in Machynlleth always inspires, then this is the antithesis. The cafe summed up our experience : there was a bowl full of scones, yet when I asked for one I was told these were only 'for display'!
   To my mind, galleries should be as eclectic as possible, but always seek to reward those with genuine talent and imagination. Despite being an excellent space full of light and white walls, Oriel Mostyn does neither of these. 
   Llandudno itself is a curious mixture of the inevitably tacky amusement arcades, the long stretch of well-preserved pier, gradual dereliction of the Grand Hotel and sheer variety of shops and cafes, some with distinctive overhanging entrances.
   It was heartening to actually hear Cymraeg spoken in the bargain bookshop, because otherwise I could have been fooled into thinking I was in the north west of England, judging by accents of trippers and shop assistants.
   We returned through England, the Shropshire-Hereford route relieved only by Wenlock Edge on one side and Long Mynd on the other.
   The only real satisfaction was a stop at Ludlow Food Centre, a foodie and boozie heaven recommended by my son. Here there were pies and quiches galore and real ales and ciders never heard of before. Both my older daughter and I went for a 7% local farmhouse cider because.......'you only need a bottle after all!'
   Back to re-work that poem written at a ludicrous hour about seeing Peter Finch doing Tai Chi at Ty Newydd Writers' Centre.
   I'd like to emulate him and learn the dynamics of being able to attack somebody, armed only with a fan. It might just come in useful next time I'm up in Llandudno and offered a virtual scone!



                              PETER FINCH DOING TAI CHI

Outside the house of scribes and scribblers
    of wordsmiths and wordcrafters
  on a small slate island in the flowerbed,
       he was a moving sculpture.

At first I thought attention-seeker
    till I realised how oblivious
  to watchers in the sun
   along the long lawn to the stile
   and a sight of the sea after.

An intent, intense art
   in slow motion pulse of light,
  arming himself to attack
    with a leaf or redirect
  the breeze to take a pen skyward.

A man of both feather and earth,
  I could not have placed a title
     on his level plinth,
  his arms and palms tracing
    currents of air, ley-lines beneath.



 
 
   Learning Welsh is like being in a large maze hewn out of bramble and gorse bushes, so there are no easy ways through gaps.   You're there trying to follow the clues, printed or visual, along those many passages. Sometimes you're on your own, sometimes there's a group of you, but always there's a glimpse of those who have made it.
   They are standing elevated on a raised platform in the middle which is called yn rhugl (fluent). There are bridges to cross (dros y bont) and you keep catching your clothing on the barbs of the bushes.
   The things that seem to hook and snag are different for each person, but quite often, it's the degree of difference between spoken Welsh and what is taught in text books.
   I spent a decade away from this maze and found that when I returned , those bushes had grown a lot higher, so I could rarely catch sight of the winners.
   At least there's a guide, a teacher, to help us find the right path, though ultimately it's down to us.
   Along the puzzling ways I've often taken the wrong route, shied away from asking directions in Welsh. However, I do know that I'm getting nearer to that platform and that, once there, I'll be proud to look out on a country forever changed.
   My wife and family have long since left the maze : reached the centre and gazed over at those lost ones wandering and searching ; left by the exit, to enter a society which is dwyieithog (bilingual).
   To them, the rewards have been considerable, not in monetary terms, but in achievements. My wife is responsible for Welsh at her English language Primary and organizes the school Eisteddfod annually. In the past her classes have competed successfully in the Urdd.
   My older daughter is the Plaid Cymru spokesperson on the language, so it is fundamental to her work and also her beliefs.
   My son used to write for 'Golwg' and do reports for S4C, though now he has entered the subterranean maze of the media in London, busy and frantic as the Tubes.
   My young daughter is now at Welsh language Comp. and it's a daily fact of life for her. I wish though that her teachers wouldn't be so oppressive in enforcing the speaking of it : such tactics are counter-productive!
   It's a sad endictment of S4C and publishing in Welsh that she and her mates all spend their time watching tv in English (often American) and only reading novels by the likes of Jacqueline Wilson.
   For me, learning Welsh has always been a struggle but, since I took early retirement, the bushes of the maze have flowered and I've rediscovered a sense of direction.
   While I do read magazines such as 'Lingo' and 'Acen' (now defunct unfortunately), I have found that literature is a much more enjoyable 'map'.
   At present I am reading my second book in the cyfres (series)  NOFELAU NAWR, Mihangel Morgan's 'Modrybedd Afradlon ' ('Reckless Aunts'). It takes a long time to get going, but lifts off half way through. I do prefer the last one I read, 'Pwy sy'n cofion Sion?' ( 'Who remembers Sion?'), where the subject-matter of a disappeared singer-songwriter appealed to me more.
   I rarely watch S4C. I used to watch 'Bandit', but that has been inexplicably axed, with no apparent replacement. I try to follow the drama series 'Gwaith/Cartref' ( a Welsh 'Waterloo Road',only funnier), but find it quite difficult as the characters speak so quickly.
   At level Canolradd 2, I like to think I'm half way there, gazing up at the stars and hoping for a leading one.
   I have written several poems in Welsh despite my limited vocabulary and, for a while, feel I'm heading for the very centre. I can even spot those on the platform waving and shouting encouragement.
   But then, I speak and stumble and lose sight of them again.
   I want to be there, to write more fluently, read more readily and speak without being aware of how far it is, how short a distance I've actually travelled.
   Cymraeg is not just a reclamation of my nation's and family's past, it exists for me in a modern literature I want to grasp and many songs I listen to daily yet can't fully comprehend : by the likes of Lleuwen, Huw M., Meic Stevens and, above all, Geraint Jarman who, it seems to me, has never had the credit he deserves.
   The melyn melyn (bright yellow) of gorse flowers light my way and the berries from bramble are words I pick and savour.



Y Geiriau Cymraeg
 

‘Croeso pawb!’ I welcome.
They are all tenses in one.
They cannot decide whether
to stand or sit down.
They came straight from school,
yet are dressed for a period drama.

They remind me of my ancestors :
the haulier of Cilfynydd
and estate manager of Wenvoe.
They pick up magazines and cds,
switch on the tv and  join in
like friends of the family.

They are strangers here
despite familiar-sounding names.
I wish they’d linger longer :
‘’steddwch lawr!’ I demand.

When they leave, their echoes
insist I raise my pen.


Notes -     y geiriau Cymraeg    - the Welsh words
                croeso pawb   - welcome everyone
                ‘seddwch lawr    -   sit down

 
 
   I spend a lot of time on the public transport system in Wales. I am not wilfully a non-driver, though my wife and older daughter would dub me a master of procrastination. I can't decide if they're right or not.   My glaucoma might be a deterrent, but it shouldn't be an excuse. At my last check up I asked the Consultant about driving and he told me to consult my optician. There's experts for you!
   What strikes me about the system is the total lack of consistency and planning. Despite the fact shops open on Sundays, there remain no buses and few trains on that day. Despite the fact that many work irregular hours in cities like Cardiff, buses and trains run less frequently after 6 pm and stop at about 11 pm.
   In terms of pricing, the lack of consistency is appalling: I pay more for a return to nearby Hirwaun than I do to Cardiff! Single day Explorer tickets are all very well, but can only be used with the same company. A journey from Merthyr to Neath or Port Talbot will require switching companies and is actually more expensive than a long train one via Cardiff.
   Local buses provide regular and resonably-priced services throughout the day, yet must fear that hooligan lager louts emerge after 6.15 pm, as that is when most of them cease completely in towns like Merthyr.
   I recall with affection those Merthyr Corporation buses which would run past 10 pm. They were probably losing a lot of money, but they could have been rationalised and smaller buses introduced instead of the wholesale deregulation of Thatcher years, which ended with the inevitable monopolies anyway.
   What's needed desperately is an all-Wales transport system, whereby bus , rail and ,indeed, cycle tracks, are planned in conjunction not in competition with each other.
   This can only be achieved realistically if we have co-operative bus companies and a nationalised rail network, with full worker participation including the election  and recall of management. Regular users should also play a vital part in the running of these.
   The priorities should be the electrification of lines west ( ultimately, as far as Fishguard) and the Valley lines ( so I can travel home quicker after City matches!). North-south services, which have been improved of late, could be further boosted by the opening of new tracks, preferably linking Abergavenny with the north in an all-Wales solution.
   If rail networks naturally provide north-south links, then buses must co-ordinate with these by providing express east-west services.
   I once went by bus from Pontypridd to Bridgend ( once was enough!), a relatively short distance yet a major ordeal. It took one and half hours and seemed to double back on itself several times. Merthyr to Abergavenny takes just as long and means it's impractical to plan train journeys from that town.
   I can understand the necessity for some buses to go through every village and estate, but fast buses are also needed  and these would enhance people's opportunities of looking for employment further afield. 
   According to Traveline Cymru ( who are generally very accurate with timetables, by the way) the Merthyr to Swansea buses have been axed. This is a crazy situation given the way Swansea is developing as a city to rival Cardiff in terms of facilities and shopping.
   Anybody who has travelled by train on a Sunday knows that every Sunday is National Engineering Day and a train journey is often taken by bus. These buses can add up to an hour on longer journeys , as they have to call at out-of-the-way stations.
   Free bus travel for pensioners is in many ways an excellent policy, but all that subsidy is going into private firms. A fully co-ordinated Welsh transport policy should instead provide incentives to use an electrified train system, while cities in particular should develop trams ( I can't help thinking of the Super Furries song........... who else could make a great rock song with the line - 'We have reduced emissions by 75%.'? ).
   Train fares have risen on a regular basis recently and the £7 return from Merthyr to Cardiff doesn't vary according to peak or off-peak times, as it sensibly used to. Such fares are coercing people into using buses, which inevitably means more road congestion. Profits are the driving force and not the Welsh people.
   Cycle hire at stations and cycle tracks which run from them would be a massive boost for tourism and also help those who wish to take their bikes on the train and then cycle afterwards.
   On a separate yet related issue, any future Welsh bus co-op's and Tren Cymru could play a much greater role in promoting our culture and especially our literature.
   Private companies have done this in a sporadic manner with posters and , very rarely, writers addressing bemused travellers with their sonnets and haiku. A short extract from my poem 'Mouthy' once appeared on the Valley Lines, minus the swearing! Ironically , most of the sonnets from my book 'Walking On Waste' were written on those trains.
   There are ample spaces for such posters on buses, trains, in bus-shelters, waiting rooms and stations themselves.
   There's also a real opportunity for music and literature. Original music could be piped onto buses and used over train p.a's. Poetry could be read between announcements.
   Imagine a journey from Newport to Carmarthen which begins with Catherine Fisher's work and ends with Menna Elfyn? It'd be like a literary tour of Wales without the need for coaches and guides.
   I always recall one imaginative guard who, as we neared a scorching Merthyr announced over the p.a. - ' We are now about to land in Merthyr. The temperature is 25 degrees and rising.' Our stand-up comics could sit down for once and take over occasionally to entertain. You never know, folk might even throw off those ubiquitous head-phones!
   Artwork should be just as widespread as poetry, with exhibitions on the move everywhere and waiting-rooms a place for our print-makers to show their stuff.
   And how about all those drab shelters livened up by murals, sculptures and, indeed, graffiti artists?
   In short, an integrated transport system for Cymru could also be a cultural one : lines of communication in the widest possible sense.

                               *****************

   Buses, like trains, can provide inspiration..........

                     
               THE GIRL OO BECOME BLONDE

Sittin on-a bus t Cardiff
nex to the minginest person as always,
windows shut an I'm gaggin.

Then this girl, jest by Whitchurch,
does this really weird thing
('bout 16, dresssed in Chinos an Converse) ;

she puts a back cap over er air,
short black air an simple
not like er fren's purpley streaks an spikes;

takes out a long blonde wig
from a plastic bag an puts it on ;
nobuddy bats an eye-lid.

The girl seems appy an pats er wig
an I carn elp wonderin what for :
some date with a bloke oo likes em fair?

Is it some disguise, or t make er
look a lot older in a bar?
On a bus fulla baldies and silveries

an the mankiest person in-a universe,
the girl looks more like an actress
getting ready f'r er latest role.


                      
  
  
   
 
'LEANNE!!!' 03/21/2012
 
   Last week saw a most historic event in Wales : the election to a party leadership of the most left-wing candidate ever. I was delighted to have played a small part, by voting for Leanne Wood number 1 and no others.   When she won the leadership race of Plaid Cymru I was sitting in a surgery in Merthyr. The doctor must've thought I was petrified at the possibility of a brain transplant with only local anaesthetic, as I entered his room with tears in my eyes. My older daughter, on the spot as ever, had just texted with the message 'LEANNE!!!'
   She was as shocked as me. I had expected Elin Jones to win convincingly, as had the BBC in their poll that day (mind , they did get it wrong over the Milibands). I refused to vote for Lord Thomas, who had abandoned independence, seemed obsessed with making pacts with Labour
, is avidly pro-nuclear and a member of a House which should be abolished.
   Likewise Elin Jones, who is pro badger-culling and fox-hunting to appease her farming constituency and, more significantly, anti-Trade Union. She advocated AMs going through the picket lines of public sector workers in order to attend the Senedd, which hardly illustrates any solidarity with some of the lowest paid workers in the country.
  Having known Leanne through campaigns and also the magazine 'Celyn' over many years ( though not well, it must be said), I am fully aware of her socialist and republican principles, which she has adhered to despite the mockery of the media in some instances.
   Her unflinching ideals mark her out as exceptional in Welsh politics and, indeed, in politics generally, where short-termism is the order of the day and politicians will do anything to appeal instantly to voters (usually,involving the royal family or the military).
   I believe many people, like myself, joined the Blaid to vote for her and support her. There is a great admiration for her decentralist socialism, which isn't merely lip-service to co-operatives and ownership of Welsh resources. There is also great respect for her feminism which preaches equality for men and women and her embracing of the Welsh language to such an extent that, even as a learner, she won the backing of Cymdeithas yr Iaith.
   She will have to be very strong to maintain her ideals, especially in the face of those in her own party who do not share them. Her vision of a very different Cymru, where people are valued and take part in the running of their own industries is by no means the 'Fisher Price' politics of Elin Jones's gibe in the leadership election.
   Rather, it is Toytown politics to accept that we go on fiddling with a system which is evidently broken.
   Of course, the media in Wales( particularly TV and radio) immediately responded to her election with typical snide remarks. BBC TV's political correspondent Betsan Powys was obviously thinking about her OBE when she referred to Leanne's 'Mrs Windsor' expulsion from the Senedd in terms of a juvenile aberration. Moreover, she kept insisting that Ms Wood wasn't a 'safe pair of hands'.
   I sincerely hope that Leanne Wood responds fully to the faith placed in her by many. I am disappointed that she has agreed to meet the aforesaid Mrs Windsor, as she has no Constitutional obligation to do so and it would be a chance to express  her republican views more widely if she refused.
   However, her early statements about public sector pay are a promising challenge to a Labour Party which still takes its support for granted in so many urban areas of Wales.
   That party believe that Plaid Cymru have tried to attack them from the Left before and failed. When exactly that took place I don't know, because there has never been a leftist leader previously who could actually inspire Trade Union allegiance and appeal to those who are totally disillusioned with all parties.
   The Labour Party in Wales may like to think of itself as a bastion against Blairism yet, after years of control in the Senedd and on numerous Councils, it has not solved the underlying economic problems facing our people, nor can it do so as a party lacking any imaginative ideas to change society.
   It is laughable when Labour harp on about the greening of the Valleys. The biggest mark over Merthyr is the vast opencast at Ffos-y-Fran which , like coal and lime tips of old, totally dominates this town. It sends out a clear message - ' Yes, we are still an internal colony.......still ripe for fossil fuel exploitation!' Our Labour AM and MP were non-existent in the campaign against it.
   So, while I greet Leanne Wood's victory with much enthusiasm, I am also wary that, like Lord Elis-Thomas before her, the system may change her and she may not alter the system. 


                                   WHEN I LOSE FAITH

When I lose faith in my team
and the keeper fumbles, a defender stumbles
and we lose again,
when there's no solace
in my action-replay brain ;
there's a rhythm of steps to the next game.

When I lose faith in my nation,
when the flag cannot wrap around
and warm the poor through winter nights;
when even some with yr iaith
see us as small and insignificant ;
there's a song can lift from valley to mountain.

When I lose faith in those I love
as we bicker and blame
and want to escape and run
as far away as we can,
every habit a hooking snag ;
there's forgiveness of kiss and hope of hug.

When I lose faith in my art,
when rejections fall onto the doormat,
when sentences tread so heavily
they print a too familiar path,
when poems and stories pile like leaves ;
there's a wind swirls me, making me dance.

When I lose faith in my politics,
when ideals I cherish are mocked
as fantasies and everyone seems out
for grabs or whatever can be bought
and a different world is just a paper thought ;
there's a march, a speech, a chant with arms linked.

When I lose faith in myself,
when I wake up and death is freezing
down my spine making me inert,
when dreams appear better places
than my home, where I cannot be reached ;
there's a smile or joke


                       
  
    
 
 
   White heat of the disco ball in the local church hall, promising a dazzle-dance, a girl and a chance.   White heat of the summer barley fields, the rolling dens, electric touch of skin on skin.
   White heat of technology faraway in the skies, Concord leaving sound behind and  those Neil Armstrong strides.

                                         **************

   I have enjoyed 'White Heat' on television so far, though it only touches on the spirit of the 60s.
   It is too much of an artificial construct and the dialogue rather stilted. In order to deal with the awakening of issues of gender, sexuality and Civil Rights we are suppposed to believe that posh yet revolutionary protagonist Jack has succeeded in bringing together six very different students as his tenants in a London house owned by his MP father.
   However, this seems too much like a Big Brother experiment, created so that the major concerns of the times can be dealt with. I'm sure that Orla, the devout northern Irish Catholic, would never have agreed to Jack's diktats on 'free love' in the first place and others would have resisted.
   I admired the way the character Charlotte (played by the gorgeous Claire Foy) was developed through her totally credible conflict with her parents, even though her clothes change from 50s to 60s in the taxi and wielding of 'Lady Chatterley' were both too forced.
   I recall going out with a girl very much like her, who even wore the same red PVC coat! I thought she was beyond me and I turned out to be right! She liked me 'as a friend' and soon after I stopped seeing her she began dating my nemesis, the Head Boy who owned a motorbike and captained the rugby team.
   My youthful years straddled the decades, so the 60s were my teenage era.
   The kind of class warfare I indulged in were constant battles with teachers who all had their own forms of torture, either physical or the sheer boredom of lessons.
   The only street fighting I did was when we used to raid houses with bangers on Bonfire Night, or attack students with pea-shooters on Rag Day. My brother was one of them ; being set in concrete for charity, if I remember rightly.
   There's no doubt my background was completely different to any of the characters in 'White Heat' : son of a single mother who had always considered herself 'shocking' when it came to any sexual matters and who flirted with Communism and CND, I was never confined or restricted; if anything given too much licence.
   In fact, my brother was probably the most rebellious by being the most conservative. He joined the Armed Forces and showed no interest in a popular musical revolution which always engrossed me.
   On the other hand, my sister often tried to 'out-shock' my mother. She studied Social Anthropology at a London Uni. and visiting her I glimpsed something of that world depicted in 'White Heat'. She left Uni. to work at a kibbutz in Israel, doing 'a gap year' before anyone had even coined that phrase.
   The 60s did keep invading and disturbing our old-fashioned Grammar School.
   There was a drugs raid once and many of my friends were hauled out of lessons and interrogated by police on the premises. One of my friends ( whose brother was well-known for designing one album cover of a certain Elton John.......whatever happened to him?) was viciously attacked down town ; he had long hair and was mistaken for a student.
   We had one influential English teacher who was an Asian escapee from the apartheid regime in S. Africa and spoke about it on occasions. He was an inspirational teacher of Shakespeare and mostly tolerant of my heresies. He was a rarity then : someone who possessed a life outside the classroom and was unafraid to share it with us.
   6th formers in the late 60s were increasingly defined by the teams we supported, but especially by the music we liked and , at one stage, SOUL versus BLUES was as big a conflict as Oasis and Blur became for my older daughter's generation.
   Though I favoured the Blues and went to see John Mayall's band play locally, I savoured being apart from the mainstream: the only one who followed Soft Machine and preferred T.S. Eliot's words to those of Bob Dylan.
   One thing I vividly recall are the many times we visited an open psychiatric hospital outside town. We went to see my sister there, as she had fractured her skull whilst out walking on a mountain in Israel. She was fortunate to survive and was knocked back to infancy.
   The place was full of casualties of the 60s : suicides and breakdowns, drug addicts and victims of a time of excess, where no such consequences had been foreseen.
   However, for every victim  like Fleetwood Mac's Peter Green, there was a hero like Lennon and none of this prevented me from going to Uni. and experimenting, if not fully, then to a considerable degree. I gained a BA in English with a subsidiary in Piss Artistry.
   At Aberystwyth, the 60s hung on into the next decade in the form of many hippies there, whose dope-fuelled parties we attended and who did possess the wealth and privilege of Jack in the series.
   However, there were signs of a change. Almost all my friends came from working-class backgrounds and had the kind of anger and desire for change more closely associated with the punks.
   My best mate was an example : Manchester accent, black leather jacket , long black hair, he quoted Nietsche and read the anarchist paper 'Black Flag'. His hero was Rimbaud and he once attended a Fancy Dress Ball as a Kamikaze pilot, dive-bombing terrified females on the dance floor. In the early 70s, he was a walking prophecy of punk and a sign that 'Peace & Love' was turning darker, becoming more nihilistic.

                                   ****************

    Black heat of a flag, a fist, a future where rules would be fired and you could charcoal a world without leaders.
   Black heat of anger : bottles thrown like grenades and glass shattering on the night-time, sleeping town.
   Black heat of Beefheart : tributaries of Blues, dream imagery and jagged jazz poetry joining in a torrent to cut deep chasms, gullies.

                                       


                              SHE WORE A RED MAC

Everyone was after her,
even my friend Ben
who was more interested
in the demise of Harold Wilson.

She was a Marianne Faithfull
to our rock fantasies,
a Twiggy to our doodled designs,
to our aspiring lenses, Julie Christie.

After two months of spluttered hellos
and passing her house on my bike
on the way to nowhere in the hope......
a mutual mate Chris was go-between.

Our first date late on the Rec.
I affected a gruff accent,
she kept asking if I had a cold :
nearest I got, pushing her on a swing.

We did walk together after that.
She wore a bright red PVC mac.
I even plastered my curly hair down
to turn it into a Beatles mop.

She was so pretty, my arm was limp
as I tried to wind it round her.
She went stiff as a mannequin,
the red plastic colder than leather.

Later on in our non-relationship
she said - 'Chris called me frigid!
What do you think, Mike?'
I nodded wisely, cleared my throat.

Looked it up in a dictionary that night.
Soon found out she was meeting Chris,
he was starting a band, playing their first gig.
I vowed to be more insulting next time.

 
 
   I once did a series of workshops at a school in the Vale of Glamorgan. In one classroom was a globe and on it Wales simply didn't exist! The name of 'Birmingham' covered the whole country.   The other weekend I stayed at a Guest House in London run mostly by Slovakians.I tried to explain to one where I was from.
   'Wales!' she looked at me curiously, as if I'd said 'Mars'.
   'We are different. England's here and Wales is here.' I help up two hands to show our geographical position.
   'Ah!.......Ireland!' she replied.
   I didn't bother to try and imitate Tom Jones. It was too early in the morning and my toast was about to pop.
   It took me back to W.Germany in the 1970s, when I had equal difficulty. My Ian Rush impersonations weren't that clever, especially as I had hair like Kevin Keegan except his was permed and mine natural.
   All this comes to me after a week when both Miliband and Clegg issued rallying cries in defence of the Union. Miliband argued that Britain must remain united because people in Glasgow and London suffer the same privations.
   He didn't go on to say that those in Athens and Madrid also struggle to exist because of the failures of austerity measures and the demise of capitalism. His theory doesn't hold up.
   For one, the SNP Government has attempted to make growth rather than cuts a priority, so the situations in Glasgow and London aren't the same. For another, the logical development of this is the advocacy of international socialism not British nationalism and I doubt Miliband would embrace that.
   Clegg's call for the UK to remain as one entity was much closer to traditional Tory British nationalism. When summing up 'our' shared history he immediately referred to past wars and the way people had fought and died together.
   This is the most common definition of Britain which avoids Empire and exploitation.
   It is the kind of negative and bellicose definition which Welsh nationalism has too often veered towards in the past. You have only to look at the less convincing poetry of Harri Webb and R. S. Thomas to realise that hatred of the English seems our abiding passion.
   Yet, if we are to have a genuine debate about independence, such as the referendum in Scotland has provoked, then we need to address this.
   For too long, we've seen ourselves in these negative terms: as what we aren't, rather than what we actually are.
   Narrow Anglophobia only leads to blame culture of the simplest kind. We must take responsibility for our own predicament, rather than continually fobbing it off onto the perceived enemy.
   Our self-confidence may have grown with the emergence of the Welsh Assembly, but we are still unable to shake off the legacy of being an internal colony.
   When our coal, iron, copper and then cheap labour economy all collapsed, to be replaced by limited light industry, public sector and retail, it only enhanced our feeling of dependence on British institutions.
   This is why the lesson of Tower Colliery need to be applied throughout Cymru. If the Tower miners could succeed as worker-owners and run their own pit for so long, then why can't such a structure be applied elsewhere?
   The most familiar comment by the many who doubt our ability to stand as a nation, is that we couldn't exist economically.
   Yet, you wonder if these people look around them now. Under Labour conditons barely improved, but under the present ConDem Gov. we are in a dire situation. Unemployment is rife and even a third of graduates getting jobs are filling posts they could have had after GCSEs!. Skilled workers and graduates' talents are totally wasted, leaving them bereft of hope.
   Benefits are cut and wages frozen. Town centres symbolize our plight : with pound shops, charity shops and pawnbrokers now familiar sights.
   I truly believe that a new vision for Wales - such as espoused by the likes of Leanne Wood in Plaid Cymru - would mean a gradual transformation of our economy, as we fully utilise the many skills available, control our natural resources and take complete charge of our infrastructure.
   We should learn from Scotland, but not rely on a single personality in the way Alex Salmond is seen to represent their desire for self-determination; for all his guile and charisma, he is a willing partner of Rupert Murdoch's media empire. Moreover, he is a pro-monarchist who would embrace NATO.
   We need to become a thoroughly modern democracy, with an elected President as representative ( as in Ireland, but less orientated towards the professional classes). We need to  express our anti-militarist tradition and distance ourselves from an organisation which seeks to interfere in the running of other countries through the use of force.
   We must not hold out for a future where water becomes our 'North Sea Oil'. Of course, our plentiful water and , indeed, energy potential, would be crucial, but far more important is the need to fully realise the many abilities of our people and ensure that they aren't forced to go elsewhere to use them.
   I want Cymru to be there on that globe, not overwritten by Birmingham. I want it to be a country recognizable in its own right, not mistaken for Ireland.
   I was not surprised that only 7% of the people polled last week favoured independence. If it seems an irrelevance to them, then I can  understand that . Yet the Tower experience tells us that we can do it if we believe and fight hard enough and, in our nagging uncertainty, we are definitely our own enemies.



                               SO  MUCH POWER

And the Lords refused to vote
for their own abolition.

Soldiers declined to admit
the pointlessness of every war.

The monarchy justified its credibility
by shaking, in gloves, the hands of the poor.

Bankers blamed the global crisis,
which had nothing to do with them.

The newspaper proprietor had so much power
he didn't know what was going on.

Celebs told their stories to reporters
then moaned about unnecessary intrusion.

Police wanted more guns to tackle crime
as they got away with killing.

Companies sold us dreams of machines
to take away any need for action.

Politicians brought inspectors in
to scrutinize everybody but them.