 Afta the final warnin I woz late agen. Straight up the office, tol em I neally topped myself, tol em I wuz on medication, tol em I wuz further down than they could imagine, deeper than rats an sewers. No arguin, put me on gardnin leave : all theyer papers, my life in numbers. Gardnin? I int got no garden, on'y weeds in-a yard. Leave me with-a dandelions like a bee drunk on pollen. Afta the final warnin, a cracked concrete future.
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 Merthyr pub and cultural hub, The Imp - I 'member when pubs woz pubs, but.....not like this one. - Aye, proper pubs where yew could smoke. - But yew never smoked. - No, but it's a matter o principle see. - An darts instead of all 'ese bloody screens! - But yew never played darts. - I know, I'm jest makin a point. - Aye, an proper beer not this foreign muck.....Allbright, Guinness an Carlin. - Allbright? - Orright, it wuz shite, but at least it woz Welsh shite. - Yew knew ev'ryone 'en, not all these youngsters playin on theyer screens. - Aye, an ardly any women......yew could ewse bard language no problem. - Ave yew yeard my missis mind? - Anyway it's my round......Wan' another o them cocktails? Sex on-a Beach? - Not since I wuz a teenager! ******************* In my teens we lived two houses down from a small village pub (there were more pubs than shops in my village). As a weekend treat my mother often used to buy a flagon or two of cider and I got to have a glass or two. She was never strict about such things, unlike her own parents who kept to their Methodist upbringing. I never ventured into that pub. The landlord's son was called Clarkie, a leather-jacketed youth several years older who, legend would have it, had just been released from Borstal. He occasionally came to the Church youth club we all attended just for something to do on winter nights. Once, he sat the whole evening on a step cutting up a denim jacket with a knife. A few months later I made the mistake of mocking him and he ran after me, pinning me down on the cow field we used for footie. I recalled that knife and nearly pissed myself! Further up the road was a pub I used to go to when I got to the 6th form. We were all under-age, including two of the local landowner's daughters, one of whom I really fancied. However, we never drank much (the rich girls weren't paying) , but the juke-box was magical. We could sit there and listen to singles banned from the radio like 'Je T'Aime' and even a ska number called 'Wet Dream'. It was like being in an alternative world. At Uni in Aberystwyth the Old Union Bar not far from the castle was my regular watering-hole, with perfectly placed pinball, table footie and even a snooker room close by. We had many a political argument and much banter there. At times it seemed like each person had their own party or grouping, what with IMG, SWP, WRP, Anarchists and old-style Commies. At that time Aber was 'dry' on Sundays and many friends joined obscure clubs just to get a drink......there were never so many members of the Sailing Club whose experience of that sport was limited to pedalos on a lake. I was simply glad of a day to recover and sober up in the whipping winds at Tanybwlch beach or spray crashing over the jetty. There was one particular pub I loved, situated near the town library (it's not there any more). Here, every Saturday night, there was a singalong session with at least two guitarists ; an old-fashioned communal karoake. We became Leonard Cohen's 'drunken choir' and ,indeed, 'his 'Bird on the Wire' was one of the favourite songs. This feeling of musical camaraderie has been replicated recently whenever Barry Taylor and Jamie Bevan play their songs alongside the Red Poets. In Merthyr I experienced many pubs because of my father-in-law. He would come over from Belfast to visit and , because it was too dangerous to go out at home, he insisted on going to a different one every evening. Ironically, he only ever drink one pint maximum. The Court of Requests, Three Horseshoes, Pant Cad Ifor and , of course, the Red Lion and Six Bells in Heolgerrig were just a few of them. He never asked to go to the Wyndham, but had he know its reputation he have insisted......he was that kind of fella. Because the landlords were open and supportive, it was The Crown at the bottom of High Street which became our community centre. All the meetings were held there, from CND to Anti-Apartheid and numerous evenings of music and poetry ensued , all held in a room thick with smoke like one of those killer London smogs. I once did a performance poem which consisted of coughing my guts out and one of Cor Cochion thought I was having an asthma attack and opened the windows rapidly. When I explained it was for show, the smoking lefties weren't impressed. The Crown had ridiculously late lock-ins, apparently due to the fact they supplied the nearby cop shop with sandwiches. I recall flying home on many occasions on Booze Air International, past the lime tip and under the old railway bridge, both long gone. Once a meeting-place for Chartists, it was fitting The Crown should become such a focal point for us lefties. It has never been fully replaced for its sense of community, but The Imp in Pontmorlais is the closest thing to it, with equally supportive landlords. It has been the venue for many memorable evenings of poetry and music and also for more mundane meetings to plan and plot. An ideal pub for me would be a place with its own microbrewery, serving up local tasty food and with an extensive menu for veggies. Its walls would be covered with photos and paintings by local artists and it would possess the kind of juke-box they have at The Castle in Tredegar where Tom Waits and Captain Beefheart feature on it. Above all, it would have a weekly singalong to take me back to those nights in Aber : a musical massage for my memory! This poem is about a really special bar in the States; in Cazenovia, Upstate New York. SEVEN STONE STEPS Seven stone steps down with the sun to the brown tavern the honeymoon hotel's nudging closer to it than ever and we are leaving the horizon, the green lake and its layers we are leaving the light and water which doesn't turn over seven steps down to the etchings, the initials, names, love-longings the knifed-out wooden carved letterings surrounding where the barman's hiding something, his nose a shining blade where we meet twilight comrades, glass greetings of 'Iechyd da!' and 'Slainte!' seven steps down with the sun and no room for another name.  ONE WAY TICKET 'Know yew always wan'ed t travel,' she sayz, 'an ow yew always d' say we on'y ever go t Tenby, an if we're lucky Cardigan Bay.' 'Well,' she sayz with a loud smile, 'I booked yew an oliday of a lifetime, summin special, it'll be totelee unforgettable!' I could ardly contain myself, what a 60th birthday presen', eh? Would it be the Caribbean or maybe the sights o Rome? 'I carn come with yew sadly,' she explained, 'it'll on'y be f'r one.' 'C'mon love, urry up an tell me.... Beaches? City break? Cruisin?' 'Well, yew gotta go really far.' 'Australia? Canada? New Zealand?' 'No, I booked yew a one way ticket to the lovely planet o Mars.'  - What yew think of ower bran'new one-way system, eh? - Causin bloody chaos so far......I reckon it's a Council plot. - Ow come? - Well, people'll jest end up goin round in circles till they give up an afto stay in town. - Cept there's nowhere to stay! - Under the bridges, in-a bus station...... - Or the Castle Otel? - Like I say, in-a train station.... - Anyway, it'll be better f piss-artists. - Yeah, on'y one way t look. - Mind, it's gotta be the right way! - What yew need see.....like-a Retail Park... is a Drinkin Park, jest loadsa pubs an nothin else.....wanderin from one t the other like the missis out shoppin. - Nah, yew'll never bring back the ol days o Merthyr town centre. ************************ In the past few weeks the headlines of the local paper have become predictable. Each week a different shop announces its forthcoming closure in Merthyr town centre : first W.H. Smith's and then Argos and now, I'm told, Shaws the drapers. It's easy to guess what's next, as both Boots and Burton have outlets on the nearby Cyfarthfa Retail Park. Although our plight looks desperate, it bears no comparison to other Valleys' towns like Tredegar, which hasn't even got clothes shops, travel agencies or mobile phone stores. Even 'Wazzy Dazzy's Bargain Basement' has shut and whatever was 'wazzy' about him, it obviously wasn't enough. However, we are caught between despair and hope at present and while many shops are rolling down the blinds for the final time, the Old Town Hall has opened up and the place where the Castle Cinema (and Inn) once stood is being turned into Dic Penderyn Square (as I believe it will be called). What's needed there is a memorial to all those who were killed in the Rising of 1831, the 24 martyrs massacred by the British military. They deserve to be remembered as much as Dic Penderyn, as they were fighting for the same causes of nascent trade unionism, justice for workers and suffrage. But to return to the town and its future. Many would argue that the centre has none. The progression towards more supermarkets and retail parks is inevitable, especially given increased parking charges. However, as Bristol has demonstrated, with imagination this decline can e not only be arrested, but reversed. Bristol was the first place on these islands to devise and introduce its own local currency, the Bristol Pound, which can be used in many small independent shops and cafes, accessed electronically and even used to pay some local taxes. It is deployed in close co-operation with the city's Credit Union and is fittingly unique in the home of Banksy! A Merthyr Pound/Punt would provide a huge boost to our rapidly failing economy in terms of encouraging those small traders. I can imagine some of the places I value so greatly like Flooks, Siop y Ganolfan and the indoor market utilising this fully and thriving as a result. It would also be an incentive for others to set up shop here and hopefully fill the gaps.......we need a Deli, a top class bakery, restaurant using local produce and Welsh Crafts outlet. Tesco's current monopoly needs to be challenged. As with Bristol, it would keep money in the town (literally!) and make people think twice about going shopping to Cardiff all the time. The other example to follow is Cardiff itself, with its Council-owned bus service; one of the few municipally-owned left in the country. At present Stagecoach operate a virtual monopoly in Merthyr and their prices are far too high and services non-existent on evenings and Sundays. Moreover, their customer services are dreadful and any promise of vouchers as compensation is invariably not met. Though bus-pass pensioners wouldn't be affected, I believe a Council-run bus service would boost the numbers travelling to town. A fairer and cheaper pricing policy is essential and there's no reason why some evening and Sunday services shouldn't return. It's ludicrous that buses to many places simply stop operating at about 6.30 pm! This does not happen in Cardiff. Thirdly, Merthyr town centre must develop a unique quality which could draw in more visitors. This already exists, but needs to be fully planned and encouraged. Walking and Cycling Tours around town need to be clearly marked and a Toruist Information centre should be located more centrally. There should be a series of tours such as a Religious Tour, Literary Tour, Iron Tour, Rising Tour etc and , at certain times in the year, the Council could employ guides to take people around. With the weekly announcement of closures the news does seem depressing. Still , there's an economic up-turn according to the Governor of the Bank of England (only England?), so maybe we should just sit back and wait for it to hit Merthyr? TOWN SHUTDOWN It was announced in the local press that the town was about to shut down. The one-way system would now be changed to a by-pass. The only buses to run would go to 'SORRY NOT IN SERVICE'. The pigeons would police the wind-filled precinct. The rats clear up the left- over litter. Charity coats, shirts and boots would march up the hill and away. The brand-new levelled square occupied by wandering strays. Roller-blinds finally close their lids and a lost drunk slur 'Nosh da!'  Remember the victims Merthyr 1831
Llanelli 1911 and, of course, northern Ireland......... This is a poem about just one of them, a man whose funeral was attended by many pop stars of the time(1983), including Bananarama and Spandau Ballet and whose brother was the drummer for Stiff Little Fingers. THE BALLAD OF 'KIDSO' REILLY Kidso Reilly, do remember him? Never a man of uniform, not one to wield a gun or get angry about the situation. Kidso Reilly, a man of fashion, his brother, the drummer, all the connections; a man of music, a Celtic fan, a roadie from northern Ireland. A great craic, a charmer, dab hand on stage with equipment for Weller, Spandau Ballet, Bananarama ; always plugged in, sorted. Kidso Reilly, back home with mates after a few jars and a carry out, got to the top of the Whiterock, an army patrol searched , interrogated. Dressed in shorts and a t-shirt Kidso walked 50 yards up Monagh when the soldier knelt down and shot him in the back, no reason. In Court, Private Thain claimed Kidso was carrying a weapon, but the Judge called him a liar : first soldier to go down for murder; though many others had been guilty before. Less than two years into his sentence he was released from prison, Ian Thain : his punishment, his old job back again! His reward for murdering an innocent was more than the Queen's shilling and no-one has ever told the Reillys if he ever returned to that scene. So remember Kidso Reilly whenever you wear a poppy, a roadie, Celtic fan, man of fashion, gunned down by the heroic British Army.  Never felt more like singin' the Blues When Cardiff win and Swansea lose - Oh Cardiff You got me singin' the Blues - Blues,Blues, Blues! When we beat Swansea 1-0 last Sunday I didn't hear that chant, which is a pity as it used to be a favourite. There were no chants for 'redbirds' or 'dragons' (except as a wind-up from Swansea fans) nor , indeed, have there been since the change and at the end - alongside the constant calling of Malky's Army, were the pointed chants of 'We're Cardiff City......We'll always be Blue!' just like our triumphant end to last season when chairman Vincent Tan appeared. There were noticeably fewer red shirts in the stadium v. Swansea and this could not entirely be explained by the appalling weather ( i.e. wearing of coats). The mood has changed significantly. I met one refusnik ( who has boycotted the club since Tan's red imposition) on the train down who put it succinctly - ' It's a laugh really! He strips the club of its history and identity and most go along with it, but now our manager's threatened people are actually questioning Tan's position.....It's a joke because some people - given a couple of bad results - would be calling for Malky's head!' He emphasized - 'Fans are so fickle!' The events of the last month, together with the disclosure about the signing of Etien Velikonja, have brought home to the majority what we have have saying all along : Tan is a megalomaniac who knows nothing about football yet treats the club as if it was just another of his Malaysian businesses, acting with total disdain towards fans, management and players. It began with the sacking of head of recruitment Iain Moody. He was summarily dismissed without Tan even realising that in this country there are certain laws protecting labour rights and an appeal to unfair dismissal. Tan has supplied no reasons for his action, which was immediately altered to 'gardening leave' (he must have a very big garden!). Derby's new boss Steve MacLaren showed his footballing knowledge by snapping up Moody! The derby match was a victory for Malky's tactics, the team's spirit and determination and , let's not forget, Moody's invaluable contribution to the club (as Mackay intimated in his post-match press conference). Our three best players on the day were Medel, Caulker and Theophile-Catherine, all signed because of Moody's excellent work. Medel, a record signing yet worth every penny, is the kind of defensive midfielder we have rarely had over the years : a player who reads the game so well. Caulker not only scored the winning goal, but was a captain who epitomized the way we played, with passion and power. Theo got more into the game as it went on and played with pace and vision. Tan's appointment of his son's friend 23 year-old Alisher Apsalyamov was the ultimate insult to Malky, who was not consulted. His qualifications for the job were wall-painting at the Stadium and computer games, but not a work permit, so he cannot perform the role due to a Home Office investigation. As with the meddling in team affairs - such as tactics and substitutions - Tan has behaved as he does in Malaysia, where his name has become synonymous with corruption. The Guardian's expose about the signing of Velikonja for £1.7 million was equally revealing, as it illustrated just how far back Tan's interference has gone. Velikonja was signed by Tan and football agent Mendes without Malky's consent. The agent was the same one who persuaded Man. Utd to part with an incredible £7 million for Bebe, when Ferguson hadn't even seen him play! He turned out to be one of their worst ever signings, just as Velikonja has been for us. The present impasse has to be resolved, given the fact that Tan refuses to support Mackay and vice versa. Had we lost to Swansea it may well have given the chairman an excuse to get rid of Malky. As it is, even the most fickle of fans can't fail to appreciate how quickly he has adapted to the Premiership and how the team has given everything for him. Before the Swansea game I was wary of his predictably defensive tactics and had they scored in the first 20 minutes, when they dominated, I think they would've gone on to win emphatically. However, the second half showed his flexibility and we played with a renewed confidence, our defenders like Caulker and Theophile bombing forward at every opportunity, something you can do with Medel always covering. Remarkably, he got everything right and his selection of Whittingham in a central role was key to the whole plan. Whitts is so much more effective there : on the wing he just hasn't got the pace to trouble Premier defenders, yet his passing and understanding with Medel were crucial. If Malky leaves (there are inevitably rumours about Norwich), there will be ructions at CCFC such as we've never witnessed before. A few 'TAN OUT' banners will be replaced by thousands and there could be a mass boycott; though given the fickle nature of many......... For now, the age of the ludicrous red dragon (which belongs on Wales football shirts) is fading and the Bluebird is on the rise again. (Please join the march organised by Bluebirds Unite before the Man Utd game. It starts at 2 pm outside the Castle.) HE DOES WHAT HE WANTS! I am Super Vinnie Tan I do what I want I am what I am. I appointed a painter in charge of recruitment called Alisha Apocalypse. It had nothing to do with him being my son's friend, he is expert on Football Manager. I signed Etien Veronica for 2 million Euro smackers, but he's hardly played since. I own you and you owe me, even Sam the Man agrees with me ; without me, where would Mackay be? We won because of the red and nothing to do with the team....... and now they no longer believe. The dragon is really so Chinese, we will sell more shirts in Far East, brings in more money you see. I am Super Vinnie Tan in my bright red suit ,I grin : I know nothing, have everything.  Top of Bald Mt. Photo by Dave Lloyd. If you go on a trek up Bald Mountain in the Adirondacks National Park, NY State, you have to sign a book to say you've left. I went there with my friend Dave Lloyd and his family but never signed out. I sincerely hope the Rescue Services aren't still looking for my bald pate camouflaged perfectly against the bare rocky surfaces you have to clamber up and slide down. In some ways, however, I do feel I'm still up there! I'm drinking in that refreshingly cool breeze like water from a spring and gazing around in amazement at the forests and lakes spread out into the distance : a sense of space without borders. I haven't come down yet and my dreadful experience at the Stephens & George Charitable Trust so-called ArtsFest in Merthyr only made me mentally want to stay there, eye-flying above those colours of the Fall, so many yellows, reds and browns I couldn't name them. (The dark forces of anti-literature were out in force when the organiser and her assistant dressed up in black well before Hallowe'en managed to create a non-event I have rarely witnessed before. She was so skilled in the dark arts that she disappeared into thin air just when I was about to give her flak!) So now I'm seeking the up-currents with the hawks, high over glacier-scooped lakes and ice-smoothed outcrops. The USA is astonishingly beautiful and also sadly tragic. For every sun going down over mysterious green water, there is an Arnold; the man we encountered at a bus-stop in downtown Portland. He gripped a plastic bottle of piss-coloured liquid, occasionally taking a slug.He jabbered incessantly and manically about being in the toilet when somebody broke his arm and how he was determined 'to kill someone'. Dirty and dishevelled, yet it was his tone which was threatening. His eyes were sunk in two wells, with no ropes to escape only the endless echoes of past voices blaming, cursing, full of hate. Abandoned by a system which simply didn't bother, like so much of our 'care in the community' over here today. And for every writer like Dave Lloyd and sculptor like his wife Kim Waale - trying to forge a unique way of expression which does not worship the ego - there is the other side of 'art'. There are those who operate strictly within genres with an eye to film rights, masters of online marketing and self-promotion. At Wordstock Festival we even met a film-maker who was looking for a book with graphic scenes of torture in it. For every gas-guzzling SUV-owning flag-flaunting citizen, there are sensitive poets like Pat Lawler of Le Moyne College, a writer at the forefront of environmental activism, trying to expose the madness of the rush for shale gas , which will soon hit us here. It was entirely predictable that the USA's first tentative steps towards a free health care system - at least for the poorest people - should be met with such animosity by Tea Party Republicans. Any real progress towards a genuine Welfare State seems slow, even as Westminster moves alarmingly in the direction of an American system which fails to support its most vulnerable citizens. Yet I learned that in Oregon there was a state bank and Portland had an office and cafe for the International Workers of the World (the 'Wobblies'), founded in the States with the objective of abolishing capitalism. The USA's socialist past is a bit like England's republicanism (with a small 'r') : buried for a reason. Going there I was supposed to feel more European, to possess an increased solidarity with the Continent and its weight of history. In fact, I felt just as much (or as little) at home in America as I had in Italy ; perhaps more so, given the language and the over-riding influence of its culture on me for so long. I kept reflecting back on Cymru and how such a new , ever-changing democracy as ours could be so limited in its powers. If Obama was incensed by the needless shut-down, then what of our Senedd, at present so burdened by pointless austerity measures which will have a lasting and disastrous affect on so many, from the closure of libraries to the bedroom tax. The more I became aware that the US Empire with its fracking, excessive capitalism and self-righteous patriotism only represents one side of that country, the more I became convinced of the importance of small and creative nations trying to express themselves in a world which seeks to flatten everything. Not a Cymru preserved and bottled - as I experienced in the old Welsh community of Remsen in upstate NY, where 'y ddraig goch' was a mere emblem and chapel-going and Cymanfa Ganu still a way of life - not this , but a country modern and out-going , while still respecting its history and traditions. I am not lost on Bald Mountain, just hovering awhile and when I finally come to ground I will find myself back on the Waun rejoicing the wonders of bracken and heather over those 19th century tips ; celebrating the fact that, at least here, they will never have to quarry for coal, to cut and blast and destroy so much. BALD MAN ON BALD MOUNTAIN I will always be there on Bald Mountain, I never signed out but no-one will be checking a wandering, bald Welshman adopted by brown bears, or eaten by them! always there in the climb along the whale-back elephant skin of smoothed out erratics, trying for a foot-hold on exposed roots with forehead veins pumping strain there in early Fall leaf-cover in gentle company and reminscences, dog-walkers exchanging breed conversations, all the way up to meet the sun and cooling breeze from the mountains always a signature yet not missing, balancing on dry rock ledges back to a boy on storm beaches, up to the shaky fire look-out and forest distance, no walls or fences there a stranger yet following together as 'leaf peepers' our senses knowing brittle colours of another leaving and the stories of the lakes deeper than we could dream. |
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